Helping Myself...

Salam.. Hi.. I can't believe with myself.. sebulan yg lalu.. Aku tekad utk bulat kn hati.. n buat keputusan.. At last.. aku msih disini.. sbb aku rsa it's not the right time to move out.. Staying here then life go on cm biasa.. Walaupun cuba tekad kn hati utk berubah.. Berfikir n bertindak ngn matang.. Tpi.. Kekuatan tuh blum ckup kebal nk laluinya.. I was trying to help myself but at the same time i'm killing myself.. Hurting my heart.. and it's really hurt n dying.. Ya ALLAH.. kuatkn hatiku ya ALLAH.. Ampunkn dosa ku.. Kuat kn iman ku.. Kuatkn smgt ku utk truskn perjalanan hidupku.. Tunjuk kan jalan yg benar dan terbaik utk aku ya ALLAH.. Aminn.. Helping others with killing myself.. I know it's not good for us.. But What should i do?? May ALLAH help me.. show me the right way.. Menadah harapan kepada MU ya ALLAH..